Dreams.

How would you feel, if you knew every 2 months, I dream the same dream?

The same dream of you driving me someplace to eat. That familiar yet strange feeling. 

If dreams mean anything, I think somewhere in my mind you are still there. 

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They make it worthwhile

to feel part of something, to feel you truly belong. I haven’t felt this way for some time. 

Im happy to say I may have finally found that feeling back. 

one of my biggest fault is my insecurities.

but these friends give me strength. 

its been a happy day, and a happy week.

To hear that from you,

Friday night, I had a really good time. 

At cq, with my favorite colleagues. 

But what I could clearly remember. Is you telling me.

“I have a secret to tell you. Actually at the start when you first joined the company I wanted to chase you.”

Why didn’t you?

I don’t know what made you decide to confess at that moment, after so much time has passed. But it made me wonder if things would have been different. 

And I guess, really, that sometimes I do overthink certain things.

What makes a change

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In the new year, my Facebook newsfeed is spammed with everyone talking about new year resolutions

It got me thinking –

Every new year, we resolve to do the same things

Become slimmer, be more successful, spend time with family, save money.

We write down all the resolutions of 2014.

but what makes me think is that, these new year resolutions. They get forgotten in a matter of months.

We don’t change, just because it is a new year.

Every day, we go through minor changes. Normally these changes occur because of the people around us – what they say & do. We get inspired, demoralized, happy, sad… etc.

But for a major change, normally it takes great decision and determination to make it happen.

And most of the time a major change can only happen when something, or someone you met in your life greatly affect the way you think and live.

It could be an event that is life-changing, good or bad.

People change when the pain of staying where you are is more painful than the pain of growth.

We change only when we can no longer accept the circumstances and situation we are in.

Like the bad relationship you are in.

Or the job you are doing only for money.

or the toxic friendships you are keeping.

To me, change doesnt come simply with a new year.

It comes with a decision and knowing what you truly want.

It’s the time of the year to count your blessings and spread the love

It’s funny how sometimes your life can be such a rollercoaster

Some days are good,

And some days are that bad.

And this time of the year, as always…

We reflect on our whole year and plan our resolutions for the new year to come.

Slowly as I grow, I start to realize the things that truly make me happy.

And what I can/can’t live without.

Different people have different priorities at different ages…

And well, I’ve realized that beyond everything there’s some things I must have in my life for me to want to strife.

Friendship. Recognition & Love.

I wanted to set my priorities straight, and to understand that some priorities I thought was not priorities had to be part of them.

Life could only be complete when you had the things you valued in place.

In 2013, I pledge myself 

1) To have an annual income of $70k

2) To achieve my target every month

3) To set aside time for friends 

4) To travel to Korea & Taiwan

5) To set aside time for family

6) To save at least 35% of my earnings 

7) To learn and be a top notch salesperson

8) To achieve my dream weight of 45kg

9) To have flawless skin

10) To be positive and happy

Three kinds of advice

When I was young, life used to be simple.

Right means right. Wrong means wrong.

People around told me that you should study hard. Work hard. Be honest, kind and good.

And I believed in it. 

But as I grew older. Suddenly, what is right and what is wrong, the line between them became blurred. 

And you start to realize that whatever advice people told you when you were young. They don’t even believe it.

And there are three kinds of advice in this world

The first one, given with bad intentions, meant for their own self interest and doesn’t help you.

The second one, given with good intentions, but without understanding your situation, doesn’t help you. 

The third one, given with good intentions, and is applicable to you, and ultimately brings you closer to your goals.

The issue we face is that sometimes we can’t differentiate them. Do you agree?

First love

I don’t think we can ever be friends again.

because all along to me, you have always been a man.

a man I loved.

and in time to come, you’ll be my first love

and maybe one day when we meet

we won’t even say hi 

or even how you’ve been.

but I will remember, we used to be like that…